April 21, 2005
I somehow cannot and don't want to
believe what I just read.
But it remains a fact and it'll never change
until someone of higher authority changes it.
I ruined my future in that rash decision.
Fine. My fault.
Sigh.
And to those who keep asking
"What course you go in?"
I didn't get in any. Stop asking.
THANK YOU.
So I'm going to ask them if studying
in private allows me to work in
government sectors.
And if they tell me of course can.
I'm going to note down the name of
the person who say it.
Once I graduate and if I ever hear
the government sector saying
its totally impossible to enter
without a poly diploma.
I'm going to sue them till my last cent
for lying to me.
Mine, not my parent's or family's money.
But if the reason's that there's no space
or something else. Then fine. My fate.
I wanted so much to work for myself
and not under others. =/
Or at least be happy with what I'm doing.
I'm so completely alien to Accounting.
I don't even know how I'm going to create
an interest in that. HAH.
I'd better, quick.
To shout, to cry, to scream.
To do anything possibly rendered to human.
All for nothing.
I don't want to go out.
I know it's boring to stay at home.
But I rather be saving money.
Transport cost's already a bomb.
I'm only left with $60+ in my bank.
That's like 1.5months of transport fees
or maybe even lesser.
And in case you don't know,
my savings are spent or gone.
But I feel happier this way.
No money. No worries.. for now.
No pocket money too.
At least I don't feel bad anymore
leeching off other's pay.
Staying at home and koping food
ain't such a bad idea too.
Registration's open now.
I still can't decide to go or not.
If it becomes full.
I don't know what will my futre be. Heh.
Start working and continue because
the pay's so attractive.
The cook there told me
"Must go back study, don't just continue and
work like that because the pay's good."
I believe I can find a job with better pay.
I don't want to believe.
Off for now.
-nIx- @ [[5:02 PM]]
I somehow cannot and don't want to
believe what I just read.
But it remains a fact and it'll never change
until someone of higher authority changes it.
I ruined my future in that rash decision.
Fine. My fault.
Sigh.
And to those who keep asking
"What course you go in?"
I didn't get in any. Stop asking.
THANK YOU.
So I'm going to ask them if studying
in private allows me to work in
government sectors.
And if they tell me of course can.
I'm going to note down the name of
the person who say it.
Once I graduate and if I ever hear
the government sector saying
its totally impossible to enter
without a poly diploma.
I'm going to sue them till my last cent
for lying to me.
Mine, not my parent's or family's money.
But if the reason's that there's no space
or something else. Then fine. My fate.
I wanted so much to work for myself
and not under others. =/
Or at least be happy with what I'm doing.
I'm so completely alien to Accounting.
I don't even know how I'm going to create
an interest in that. HAH.
I'd better, quick.
To shout, to cry, to scream.
To do anything possibly rendered to human.
All for nothing.
I don't want to go out.
I know it's boring to stay at home.
But I rather be saving money.
Transport cost's already a bomb.
I'm only left with $60+ in my bank.
That's like 1.5months of transport fees
or maybe even lesser.
And in case you don't know,
my savings are spent or gone.
But I feel happier this way.
No money. No worries.. for now.
No pocket money too.
At least I don't feel bad anymore
leeching off other's pay.
Staying at home and koping food
ain't such a bad idea too.
Registration's open now.
I still can't decide to go or not.
If it becomes full.
I don't know what will my futre be. Heh.
Start working and continue because
the pay's so attractive.
The cook there told me
"Must go back study, don't just continue and
work like that because the pay's good."
I believe I can find a job with better pay.
I don't want to believe.
Off for now.
-nIx- @ [[5:02 PM]]
